I have been considering what is next in my musical life.
Bang on more doors looking for gigs? Compose a new show and album? Push harder? Take a break?
October 2 will mark seven years for me as a full time musician. In that time, I have improved in every way – chops, theory, composing and performing. I am playing my best ever and yet I have hit a lull in gigs.
I got off to a slow start while recovering from knee surgery Christmas eve. And, I did compose and record an album of relaxation music for flute and cello. I know I could just let that be enough and wait for what’s next to appear, but I am still anxious and yearning.
I found some kind of new freedom with the album. I did not seek approval but wrote what I felt and am totally OK with people liking it or not.
I am about to play a small concert and I am approaching it with the same attitude – perhaps the first time ever. I think the experience will help point the way to what might be next. Meanwhile I am practicing harder and more intelligently and I am writing music daily while looking for clarity! Stay tuned for the next chapter. Dum da dum dum.